What Train Are You On?

What is the momentum that you are in right now?
There is energy within every thought, feeling and action. This energy triggers momentum.
I have to stall my momentum.
Break apart the way that my thoughts are connecting and the feelings elicited.
I have to breathe deeply so that I do not believe this momentum has to be caught up with.
So that I remember that this is not a race that I want to run.
This stall happens with fear, doubt, impatience, anger and chaos.
It happens when the thoughts and feelings that I do not take pleasure out of feeling
Gain a momentum that I am not interested in.
It feels, sometimes, as if I was peeking my head into a boxcar and all of a sudden the train started to move with a speed that made me scared to jump off.
If I don’t jump, then I will be carried along a route that I did not choose.
A route that I didn't mean to choose.
This route is a reaction.
An explosion.
It is intense, the friction of momentum.
Then there are trains that I want to ride.
Strains of momentous energy that I do not stall, but instead I dance in.
Joy, bliss, happiness, wonder, creativity.
I can be the conductor of these trains,
The contractor designing the routes.
I become more involved in their direction because I am interested in experiencing it.
I am learning the confrontation of choice.
I am learning to choose to stall what I don’t want to get carried away by,
And feed what I want to carry me.
I am learning that I can jump off of a train that I don’t believe in,
Take a few steps and ask for a different train to pick me up.
And what I asked for will arrive for me.
There is energy within every thought, feeling and action. This energy triggers momentum.
If each type of momentum was a train going in a different direction,
What train are you on?
Will you stay on this course?